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Carrying More
Than I Thought I Could

This was the hardest year. Two leadership roles at once, competitions, accolades — and somewhere in between all of it, I found people who made everything lighter.

Leadership and friendships in 2025
The people who made the heavy parts feel lighter.

Two roles, one person

2025 handed me more than I thought I could hold. I became Vice President and College Governor at the same time — nakakapagod, sobra. There were weeks where I was running on almost nothing, showing up to meetings, handling events, making decisions that affected others, while also trying to survive academically.

There were days I sat alone and genuinely wondered how I was still standing. And then I'd remind myself: you chose this. You chose to lead because you believed you could make a difference — and walking away would mean proving yourself wrong.

Burnout is real. I felt it. But I also learned that rest is not quitting — it's strategy. You can't pour from an empty cup, so I had to learn to refill mine without guilt.

My "nakshie"

In the middle of all the chaos, I met people — genuinely good, funny, real people — who became part of my story in ways I didn't expect. My "nakshie." They weren't just friends; they were anchors. The ones I could be completely unguarded around, laugh with after exhausting days, and lean on when the weight got too heavy.

I think about how different this year would've been without them, and honestly — I don't want to imagine it. They made the hard parts survivable. More than survivable. They made them memorable.

Governance
College Governor — student representation
Vice President
Led org operations & decision-making
Resilience
Showed up even when I was drained
Community
Found my people mid-storm

Genuinely happy, despite everything

The strange thing about 2025 is that even at its hardest, I was genuinely happy. Not the performative kind — the real, quiet kind. The kind you feel when you know what you're doing matters, when the people around you make the difficult days beautiful, when you end a brutal week and still feel proud of yourself.

I carried more than I thought I could. And I didn't break.